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Saturday, October 29, 2005

-3:01 PM

came juz like e wind n kinda took mi by surprise..
felt mi feelin tt i'm suppose to b in a world which onli consists of e both of us..
but rite now, i guess i'm feeling unsecure...
e words said, the feelings shared...
wat if they all turn out to b a game??
its beautiful to b in this world...
if they r to turn out to being a game..
i'm afraid i cant reali take it...

pls let mi noe bout ur thoughts...
wif out them, i juz feel so worried n...
mayb u r feelin the same wae as i am...
but i guess mayb both of us need some assurance...

if it's meant to b a game..
let mi noe b4 i find it out myself..
at least we'll still b frenz tt time..

i hope i'm not the 1 hu's been tinkin too much...

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

-4:06 PM

Mondae

went for the dance session at 4pm in skool..wah...reali nice lehz...all e wae..eric was my dance partner..hehe...i tink we both e crazy crazy type de!! lol!! but veri fun lahz...we onli stop our practise at round 10.30pm sia!! in which some of us went for supper at techno...haha. i sat wif eric, yongda n sheldon!! they 3 so funni sia!! so cute!! take pics of mi!! i feel like a star man~~!! lolz...hehe...hey..the foto neber go for makeover hor...NATURAL de~~~!! lolz!! dun keep on sayin tt the pic is nice lahz...now also not bad de lahz!! =( hehe..after tt, cannonz went back wif mi...reali tired by tt time..but fun dae i should sae!!

Todae

mi n jEsSeLLe~~!!

e pRetty bAbEs~~!!

went to skool early in the mornin for the flash thingy sia...haha...sianz sianz lahz...the bois so nottie den the gers so hardworking..haiz...den went to pack pack ihub room den wentoff to find weiling they all as promised le. we went for kbox!! wah...reali haf a great time there sia!! almost lost my voice sia!! so long neber go kbox le!! song arhz~~!! after tt, we went to orchard to shop shop lor...got great great big downpour!! sianz!! but we managed to get to far east!! wah...i bought 1 skirt there!! i tink not bad lahz...but mum tinks its too short...haiz..sometimes..i reali tink i should juz sit down n tok things out wif mummy. we seems to b driftin awae more n more from each other these few daes....haiz...someone teach mi man!! aniwae, we(pheobe, jess n mi) came back to tampines n sat down to chat lor..wah..haf a great time chattin..tokin bout our beliefs n stuffs. i reali feel great chattin wif them...its like i can get to noe bout their thoughts n views on different stuffs..hehe..mayb 1 dae u guys should try it wif ur frenz too...

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

-4:25 AM

Bonjour~~!! hehe...actuali not mrning liaoz...haha..juz laming around..woke up quite arly todae to go for breakfast wif mum, baby, ling, uncle james n auntie leng...baby's so clever now...can speak more n more words le..hehe..while waitin for mum n auntie leng to come back from e wet market, i brought baby to e supermarket!! she's so adorable!!

so now..i'm juz back n startin to upload all my pics n stuffs....yesterdae didnt manage to blog as i was reali tired...but tinkin back, there was 1 event where by i was reali left shocked...

as usual...sundae was to b a workin dae for mi at bishan..sianz sianz as usual..didnt managed to sell ani. i even went forlunchw if xian at orchard!! hehe..did we haf e time?!?! of coz we do!! hehe...we even went shop shop for awhile n saw wei jian. he was selling his fone at nokia roadshow. wah lao ...kena suan by him sia..so sian..after tt, we arranged to meet at 9 at city hall b4 goin back together.

time ends fast ya...n we made our wae back.when we reach tampines, something reali shocked mi. i saw a young malay dad pushing fast in order to get into the train as the train's door was closing liaoz...but i guessed he was juz late by 2 seconds sia. guess wat? the baby n the baby pram was stuck in between the mrt train's door sia!! omg!! reali lehz..it's like the door is closing liaoz the dad still do tt...haiz...but if u tink tt is already bad enuff...listen to mi more...on seein tt the door n the baby pram is stuck..the dad quickly let go of the pram sia~~!! wah lao!! its like if the train were to leave wif the pram in between, the dad would juz stand i watch i suppose!! haiz..luckily the mrt doors opened again...n u noe wat?? the 2 parents acted like as if nothing had happened n everything's normal!! wah lao..i reali bth lor..feel like slapping the parents!! wth!! reali left mi shocked n feelin sorrie lor...sorrie not for the parents but the bay...for hafin such parents!! reali...i pity the child!!

haiz...dun sae liaoz...well, below r some pics tt i've uploaded!! more could b seen at the links!!

rite after e MTC~~!!

mi, jo n jesselle!!

at the beach during the chalet~~!!

evelyn priscelia after the sailormoon job~~!!

Sunday, October 23, 2005

-3:08 PM

hehe...missin out on my blog le!! had juz been to the MTC camp...hehe...so tired...body aching...legs pain...haiz...tink i'm reali old le...reali cant do much things le...easily abit abit tired liaoz..erm...juz 2 daes ago was the camp n 2dae was my work...second week le...haha

~ Camp ~

hehe...was nice..haha...at the veri start, i actuali almost couldnt wake up in time for the camp sia!! lolz...!! haiz...was reali a big disappointment...there was onli like 29 mentors hu turned up sia!! was reali sad...but i'm glad the remainin ppl were steady enuff to come to the chalet...haha..the start was abit of sianz lahz...but i tink still ok lahz..hehe...lunch was goot coz it was on ourself..hehe!! after lunch, wqe started playin hunter, fire n earthquake!! wah..i reali kena lor!! tink everyoneganged up sia!! i kena so much of the camo cream sia!! oh my god...den when everything ended, i "used" e cream on my face n wiped on ppl!! hahaha!! lol...i quickly went to toilet n washed afetr tt. but guess wat?!?! it was reali hard to wash awae as alot of the cream kinda dried up le...den i ended up like a black b4 turnin back to myself!! lolz!! i thought tt was the end, but those"victims" of mine came n find mi sia!! n in the end, hehe...back to being a black again!! so ke lian!!

hehe..went for a bathe b4 goin for dinner...dinner sucks!! the food wasnt nice...seriously..haiz..but i went off for the jobtrainin which i haf da go..but it was all rubbihs as it didnt reali bothered mi...haiz...actuali wanted to go find the rest at changi but when i called at 9pm, someone actuali told mi tt they r goin back to skool soon n told mi to go back 1st..so when i reached at 9.30pm,i called jeremy n guess wat he sae?? he sae they will onli b back by 11pm!! omg!! i was so angry lor!! reali...nth can describe how i feel...haiz..it's like alone in skool in the nite!! haiz..till now, i still dunno how to describe how i feel but reali veri angry!! n they onli returned to skool by 11.30pm!! so guess wat? i waited outside of skool for 2hrs!! wth!! haiz.. the following nite was worse..didnt had a goot sleep...tts was reali bad..b it on the floor or on the tables..haiz...so when i woke up int he mornin...my whole body was aching lor...plus i'm reali tired!!

i tink the whole catch on the last dae was the water games!! everyone had so muuc fun sia!! it's like i juz wanted to go in n get water everyone started splashin mi wif the water tt they've collected!! omg!! it actuali ended early with everyone dancin the mass dance n cheeky dance..after tt was foto shoot time!! hehe...my team won k!! hehe...best group of the dae!! den went back to ihub room n the gers n mi actuali started takin pics!! hehe..lolz..
den went for dinner wif jun, ivan sim, ade n the rest..hehe..nice dinner...

~ Work ~

work 2dae was tiring...haiz...so sianz somemore!! dying sia...reali didnt manage to sell ani sia!! i'm wonderin hu will b my first customer sia...haha...but u noe something ironical?? i wanted to buy anew mascara 2dae n when i went to guardian's, this lady came to promote mi this new mascara...she said barely 2 sentences n i bought the thing from her le!! omg!! y is it so hard for mi to sell stuffs?? omg!! tink i reali CMI le~~!! den now, i goin to drink abit n haf some food le!! tired!!

i've already uploaded the pics le...will b updatin the links soon le!! body's aching like siao!! i'm reali tired!!

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

-3:52 PM

haiz...so mani stuffs lehz...dun even noe hu to reali to sae to...found out tt actuali fren for so mani years will also doubt us de.dunno wat to sae..i've been sad over it...juz so sad. i wonder wat will happen between everyone if the fren ship is reali over...

Tuesdae

woke up veri early sia...rite at 10am, i'm already at skool le..meetin wif Mr Andrew n Mr Harun. haiz..registration reali veri ma fan lehz....so mani things to do sia...but the whole thing ended at round 12pm den i haf to linger for 1hr w/o nth to do sia!!den i went to library at sparks to sit there n surf net lor...time passes by real fast. it was 1 soon n i went for the meetin wif ihub le..

the meetin was sianz lor...nth much discussed lor. i met eric to let him noe bout the registration thingy b4 goin home.actuali wanted to go to the bbq in the nite...but it was rainin whole nite. den i lazy le...lol...

Wednesdae

mornin time went to malaysia wif neighbour n mum n ling. den went to eat wif them. baby so cute lehz...still wan to play catchin wif mi sia...den we went back at round 1 plus. den after tt sleep all e wae till 6 plus le...haha...so piggy..i also bth..haha...den in the nite, i went to meet xian. coz i wan to buy shorts..lol..even went to eat at mac n catch up~~!! lolz...den now at home, juz finish drinkin some whisky lor...on fone wif xian...

gonna go for camp these 2 daes le...miss mi guys~~!!

missin is hard to bear at times...

Monday, October 17, 2005

-4:04 PM

haiz...so mani donkey daes neber blog le...reali tired n busy these few daes...i tink all the wae from wednesdae ba...den i neber blog liaoz...haiz...so mani things...

Thursdae

1. went back to skool for the last staff meeting...
2. reali got alot of things...
3. alot of quarrels between the 3 of us over this job.dunno if this job brings us luck or all the suay luck!!
4. been reali stressed...admin n this job brings alot of headaches
5. went to club momo wif zhu, tao, clark, alex n jek.
6. reali fun sia!!
7. even saw julia n sally!!
8. quarrel wif her...
9. y cant she understand mi more?? y cant she b juz like others?? haiz...

Fridae

1. its hai ye's birthdae!!
2. settle admin stuffs b4 goin to eat at sake wif mum, ling n ye...
3. wah...eat till damn song n full!
4. went to take outfit wif xian n bell. luckily everything is settled!!
5. at 1st sae onli 1 hr..but in the end, wait all the wae from 6.30pm to 11pm!!
6. oh gosh!!

Saturdae

1. woke up in a fright as i've got netball train!! finally sia...coz after so long...
2. found out tt i reali cant run animore le...old n useless liaoz!!
3. went to eat at pizza hut wif team mates n mr teo!!
4. went for the sailormoon job!! (reali excited)
5. i'm a sailor mars!! oh my god!!
6. so tiring!! skirt so short n the heels were at least 4 inch long!! OMG!! feel like dying...
7. legs ache all the wae!!
8. met lai fun n went home!!

Sundae

1. legs still achin!! den still haf da wear boots tt r like 3 inch long!!
2. so sianz sia the job!! dying!!
3. my outfit too jialat liaoz...all the ppl keep lookin!! even got mei mei come ask mi y i wearin till like tt sia!! OMG!!
4. went for lunch cum dinner wif him...at LJS!! 2dae's rainin!! juz like e veri 1st time i came to J8 wif him...
5. went back to tt borin work~~!!
6. went home at 8.50pm!! yeah!!
7. now at home!! legs so tired n pain!! the heels!! oh my...
8. i should reali start wearin heels!!

thoughts n words which r once again forbidden to sae out...i guess..this time round, its not mi hu forbids..but u....but no matter wat, i still understand...i will juz do like i've promised though...

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

-4:30 PM

haiz....i'm sick again...lolz...yesterdae keep on hafin sore throat sia!! reali terrible 1...flu non stop plus cough non stop...but at 1st is dun haf cough de...also dunno y suddenly the cough comes n join in the fun also le...haiz..

den yesterdae nite most fun...sore throat till the max liaoz den i fever~~!! till mornin also fever sia!! somemore i stuffed myself wif so much water yesterdae u noe...dunno how mani litres sia!! but still e fever came...sianz!!

but luckily, wif the tender lovin care of my mummy~~~, recovered quite fast n in the nite, i was able to attend one of my cousin's wedding le...hehe..wah..reali full sia...but also abit sianz lahz...

drank lotsa red wine wif my cousins...den drink till abit high...den last 1 is make mi reali real high...uncle johnny sae:"Cheers!" den mum ask mi if i wan her beer den i blur blur den i juz take n cheers liaoz!! oh my god!! haiz...but now...feelin much more betta le...so much more..tink i gonna turn in early...goot nite!!

the presence came too sudden...is this for real or not...do not make mi fall if u neber meant to catch mi as i fall...

Saturday, October 08, 2005

-3:57 PM

long time neber blog le...hehe..dunno how mani donkey daes neber blog le...but i'm tired le...so not gonna write everything out le i guess...but wateva tt happens this few daes has been great..reali great...although being penniless in the end, its still worth every single cent...tts how broke i'm now...haiz...reali... BROKE!! tts the word for it...i tink i reali should start to look for a sugar daddy le!!

Tues - 4 Oct

1. went for a meeting in skool...fun though...
2. went to leslie house b4 checkin in wif leslie, rod n janice!!
3. mahjong time!! hehe...
4. brandon reali shocked us le!! he became so slim!! got so nice shape too!! haha..muz ask him how he slim down de!! den i can jia you!! lolz...
5. drink the gin tt brandon bought through the nite.
6. the rest like jun, keong, han went to sleep while mi, xian n leslie stayed up whole nite till mornin, tokin...lolz!!

Wed - 5 Oct

1. rod n peck woke up at 8 plus den the 5 of us gamble wif dice!! haiz...hardcore gamblers!!
2. hit the pool time!! rite at 10 plus..but didnt swim as pool is "hungry"!! It's got a chicken bone inside!!
3. went back to sleep...
4. went home to settle m heavy bag n back to the chalet wif xian at 5 plus near 6...
5. the shuttle bus didnt wait for us...we haf da walked in sia!! ediotic bus uncle!!
6. start bbq liaoz den eat!! watch mon on tv!!
7. went off to find wei yong n jackson!! went for a spin in their bikes wif yen wei!! fun~~!
8. went back to chalet n bathe!!
9. at last, sleep asleep wif xian n janice on the bed...3 darlings slept through the nite like babies...

Thurs - 6 Oct

1. woke up early in the mornin at 8 plus...coz gotta check out lor...
2. went home after a light breakfast wif han, xian, chong, rod n jan!!
3. bathe n watch tv...
4. went out for dinner wif jesselle, winnie n phoebe!!
5. went to geylang for some frog leg's porridge!! love it...
6. saw quite afew hookers...they r beautiful!!
7.went home n slack liaoz..

Fri - 7 Oct

slack at home whole dae...gonna upload the pics at the chalet soon liaoz...been tinkin...there r juz alot of things which i dun wish to hold on too much hope on them...becoz juz like wat ppl sae...

the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment...

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

-4:06 PM

hehe..so long neber blog le...coz these few daes been reali busy goin out...coz its my dae!! haha...i'm 18 liaoz lor!! hehe...been reali busy i should sae...wif the meetings, chalet tts comin up n lotsa stuffs sia! mayb i should start slowly...lettin everyone noe of these great daes!!

FridAe - 30 sEp 2005

hehe...the veri special dae for mi...the dae when the princess turns 18!! hehe...(let mi be a princess for 1 dae ya?!?!?) woke up n began startin to prepare le...coz i woke up quite late...at round 11am plus. gotta start preparing coz we gotta rush to hotel rendezous for our buffet lunch. hehe...we actuali booked a placin for us at 1pom as we still had da wait for hai ye to come home b4 we can go lor...hehe...so rush rush rush...n guess wat time we reached there?? hehe...late lahz...coz hai ye was late..den we reached e place at 2pm sia! haha...the buffet lunch was ok lahz...not too bad though...!! hehe...quite happie lahz...being late didnt reali spoil my mood too...

den after lunch, mi n mummmy went to buy 4d!! haha..coz i told mummy mayb i'll haf beginner's luck!! lolz...haha...den went up to find yong sheng kor kor b4 we walked around PS. i even bought a pair of shoes for mummy!! to thank her for bringin mi into this world!!
after tt, i went off to look for xian they all le...coz they celebratin wif mi!! reali was bad sia...while walkin there, it suddenly rained!! haiz...so jia lat!! but it didnt reali got into us n we went to sakae sushi to eat lor...buffet lehz..but mi n leslie didnt haf it coz we were both quite full ya..xian n han got mi a prezzie which my fren bought for mi!! omg!! i reali felt bad as xian used up her next week allowance juz to get it for mi!! i reali feel bad!! reali bad...i juz dunno wat to sae...xian...i'm reali sorrie!!

mi n xian at sakae sushi!!

mi on my bdae...

after tt, went for a toopid interview n went off to play mahjong coz mani of them werent free...haiz...so jia lat...keong was such a monkey durin the mj session...haha...bth!! i went off wif leslie...but we went to eat prata b4 he sent mi off...haha...tt was reali nice as i was feelin reali hungry sia!! but tt practically ends mi bdae... pics could b seen at the links!!

the wishes tt neber came...

Saturdae

happie children's dae!! haha...went out wif jesselle they all!! oh my!! miss them so veri much!! its alwaes such a joy to b wif them!! reali...we meet at round 4pm at orchard n went straight for breeks to fill our hungry stomachs le!! haha...bth...haha...n which jesselle's bf, alvin came...haha...sorrie ger...at 1st i reali couldnt recopngize he's reali him!! sorrie!!

we den went shoppin round orchard till 8.30pm b4 goin to geylang for the supper!! the you tiao n soy bean milk drink...reali nice!! but geylang reali alot of ti ko peh sia!! kinda hate tt place...but no choice but gotta love it becoz of the delicious food tt geylang offers!! after tt supper, jesselle went off wif her bf n the rest of us went home in bus le.. but mi n phoebe went down to get some buns for our family so...we went back ourselves. was reali nice tokin to her...miss her so much...feel so sorrie for her...ger...we'll alwaes be wif u...forget him ba...

my group of darlings...

Sundae

another dae which i slacked at home whole dae long in front of the tv.
btw, my beloved grandma came, tts y i'm home~~!!

Mondae

2dae went to bai bai wif mummy n ling wor...haha...tt actuali means pray to gods..erm..so can imagine tt i woke up quite early...haiz...wat to do..but had a reali nice breakfast cum lunch at the vegetarian restaurant!!

came home rest awhile n it was time to go to han's house le!! goin for a chalet tts tomolo le!! haha...helped da do the stingray, sotongs n stuffs...after tt watched anime for awhile n slacked slacked for awhile, it was time to haf dinner!! haha...nice dinner...found out tt han's parents r reali open!! sometimes which i reali wan in my family...but different family different lahz...this i noe...but still hope though...

mi, bell, han, mon n xian went to bedok interchange to get some stuffs for the bbq after dinrer...shopped here n there. n even went to eat at hawker 85 there...reali nice sia...at 1st we till sae wanna eat prata de...but turn out tt we r all full le den decided to go home de.
found out tt i'm alone..reali alone..mayb i reali dun wish to b there shoppin wif them...juz hate the feelin of a big lightbulb..haiz...

den on fone wif jesselle now lor...gonna sleep soon liaoz i guess...reali tired...