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Saturday, January 28, 2006

-8:59 PM

i cant believe tt i was spring cleaning my room n mopping the whole house all the wae from 12am to 3.30am!!

simply amazing!!!

n i'm still awake!! i'm off to sleep now...byebye...

yeah...i'm now at my hubby's house hehehe...

happy new year in advance everyone..!! will blog bout my new year experience!!

and i love my hubby lotsa!! muacks!!

Friday, January 27, 2006

-3:58 PM

i didnt noe u would juz dun care....

not even a call from u...

i dun understand y we would even argue everytime we r goin out baby...

baby...i still love u as much...neber abit lesser...

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

-5:46 PM

my baBy n i...* i loVe uR kiSseS *

boring dae to start wif...skool's boring as usual...nothing much to sae lahz...juz tt mayb...tuesdae lessons r alwaes boring...(mayb everydae ba..) but i reali feel bad...IFCTech project i'm reali not able to help my group.

ok... i admit i'm a donkey in tt module...if fact, i noe nuts bout it...not tt i dun wan to put in effort into tt module...but it juz didnt work out. n 2dae, i practically did nothing for tt project of mine...in fact, most of them were done by yuki..she's reali pro in it...haiz...dun understand lahz...

i juz hate tt module...

went home wif ade 2dae...told her my problems bout the SIP thingy...its been bothering mi quite much...since yesterdae till now...even more when i saw how troubled dirah n siti were over e SIP groupin...haiz...i'm reali sorrie gers...but i'm reali rackin over it for u gers sake too...but i didnt noe things would turn out this wae...sorrie... i reali felt bad =( i put in effort to try to include everyone in..but it turns out this wae...i'm reali troubled n felt reali bad...sorrie gers..

to tt him : to help u...we discuss n waited to look out for ani more available persons n waited till e veri last min b4 we actuali paired everyone up. but it turns out to b tt u will juz turn things round n upset our arrangements by doin tt kind of a thing. i'm reali angry wif u...all tt u've thought of, came up wif n done...juz to save ur own ass.... thanks...becos of this, i'm glad i've seen through u... thank you so much..n pls dun wish tt i'll do my best n help u the next time u ask for my help... *n if u tink tt u've picked up a treasure, do gif it a second thought...(n this mayb b the last advice/help i'm gifin u) mayb things tt u haf tried so hard to get, is juz a piece of waste.*

to tt her : all these 2 years of friendship actuali means nothing to u i guess...since u can juz let go of us n go off to others. others whom u've neber worked wif n juz noe each other by names. how bout the rest n everyone of us? i didnt noe tt promising ur own frenz den breakin it would b such a easy thing. sorrie, i dun tink i can ever tok or luff or joke or even look at u in the same wae as b4...its hard for mi...for i cant bear to let myself take the pain of tokin to such a person. seriously, till now, i still cant imagine y u would do tt. izzit becoz u cant live wif out guys? sorrie...i dun wan to be tt bad. to sae such mean things bout u...let mi noe of a goot reason...n mayb i will sae sorrie to u..till now, the thought of it still angers mi.

to the both of them : i'm terribly disappointed wif u 2...nothing more to sae...expect nothing from mi again for i wouldnt allow myself to b manipulate by u 2 again...becoz u guys...e plans tt i've came up wif to make everyone happie was destroyed...n to make things worse, u spoilt everything...thx...

lesson learnt : through this period of onli 2 - 3 daes, i've seen through the true faces of mani ppl around mi...those fren hu stand by mi n those tts not even worth for mi to mention their names...i' not tryin to blame this grouping thingy...but i'm instead, glad tt it came. for it has made mi understand e kind of world this is n also the kind of ppl i'm mixing wif...

well, i dun wan to tok bout it animore...btw, i cleaned the toilet wif mummy. well, goot child rite? i noe.. =) though tired, but reali got a great sense of achievement when we both finally finished it...hehe..btw, i started cleaning at round 8.30pm n onli finished it at round 11pm!! hehe...

baby...i missed u alot...i hafnt seen u for 2 daes le...its reali weird since i haf been seeing u almost everydae...i wanna see u soon... =)

-3:14 PM

been tt n tt these daes...e mi rite now?? tryin to do my edd stuffs for the project and at the same time, blogging~~ hehe.. well, lata part of the edd lesson will b quiz(which is closed book and i'm in trouble!!) god bless mi man..i hafnt been reali hardworkin wif my studies recently...been reali lazy...skippin here n there due to lotsa stuffs like open house n so on...
oh god...pls make mi b more dilligent...

went to yu tao's birthdae chalet..well, tt was like quite embarassed when i saw allen. noe y? coz its his birthdae(exactly on tt dae, yu tao's in feb but they celebrated it together!!) haiz..ok...so tinkin tt its onli yu tao's bdae, i onli shared a present wif mon n bell n came to the party...well..embarassed...sorrie dude...dun mean it..but i reali didnt noe it...

last week for mi to do all my shoppin for new clothes n shoes n go on le...but i've onli got myself afew tops...hafnt reali seen something nice for shoes n bottoms...well, gotta hurry b4 new year comes...sundae wasnt much of a fun actuali...quarrelled n stuffs...n yesterdae i went out wif my baby n hai ye to far east n wisma....but i'm still glad baby n hai ye still can communicate quite well...n a total of 80 points was gifen to my dar.. =) been fun n boring at same times...rite baby??

sOmE pReciOus swEet nOtHins fOr u dArLiNg..

sorrie for the times when i threw my temper at u..i'm glad i haf u...i will change de. =) baby,i thx you for being so ever sweet to tolerate all my nonsense n so on...tinkin back, i've reali had all my da xiao jie temper all on u...n i'm all bout u...

Friday, January 20, 2006

-3:56 PM

i saw my baby in skool 2dae....

there isnt much ppl coming to the open house compared to last year i guess....

but well, the chocos inside the bag is soOoOo nice!! simply my loves...

tuition drains mi...java project drives mi crazy...

happie birthdae to edwin n joy....stay sweet n happie...mayb all ur dreams come true....

i do miss u alot my dear...

Thursday, January 19, 2006

-3:34 PM

i'm sick 2dae...tink its becoz of ling ba...she's been not feeling well...especially yesterdae since she's been coughin all the wae...haiz...den tink she got slight fever ba...den when i woke up in the morning..i was feeling dizzy too...actuali thought i would b ok...but it got worse...i was in skool feeling sick..

but well, i slept throughout e whole of my IA lecture...not knowing wat kumbar was sayin...reali difficult to sleep...especially when u're sick...lec so cold...so difficult to sleep when u r reali tired...haiz..tts life...

after tt, went for my BFA lesson n spent my 2 hrs there lor...after tt, mi, gino n zac chiong down to capitol to find ade n joy...hehe...they were there doin their hair...imgaine...this period of time...cuttin n highlighting of their hair for onli 15 bucks!! hey!! its 15 bucks onli k?? hehe where to get such deals? so... zac n gino n i chiong down lor...3 cheapskates..lolz!!

zac n gino dye their hairs...reali cool...for mi...a "obvious" highlight if u guys r able to notice...hehe...but i guess i'm reali sick lahz...i reali felt like sleepin when i was gettin my hair done...tired...lucky still can managed to joke wif those ppl...The Chronicles of Narnia!! The Witch, The Lion and The Wardrobe...lolz!!

went to magic wok for dinner...so as to celebrate joy's birthdae tts comin in less den an hour time...reali nice n den zac sent everyone of us back...juz tt somehow...i'm not as talkative as i usually am.

jonathan's at my house. to accompany ling...how nice rite?? ling's been sick for 2 daes...since yesterdae i mean...he went to the doc wif her...stayed throughout wif her...when she's sick. n its nice to haf someone u love by ur side...imagine this...i even got an sms from jonathan asking how's my sista after she's in bed.. i guess its alwaes the case...e one sick would alwaes hope for tt person he/she loves to stay wif him/her, to care bout how he/she feels n not ask someone else to take care of them, to ask bout how they r feeling instead of all e silence...aniwae...tts all i wan to sae...

happie birthdae to joy, happie birthdae to joy, happie birthdae to JOY~~~ happie birthdae to u!! stay pretty ger...dreams do come true...so keep on wishing...god bless u...happie 20th birthdae!!

i'm tired...n i dunno wat more to sae...mayb i should haf gone to sleep...mayb i shouldnt haf written anithing here at all...mayb i shouldnt even feel tt not a word of concern is asked...n i'm off to bed...

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

-5:19 PM

well well...woke up pretty early 2dae for my veri 1st techno enterprise lesson after the term break.lolz...been missing on alot of this module lesson le...so...i went!! hehe..still not bad...marcus was early sia!! hehe...rare sia...coz he would normally b the one to b the latest...or mayb neber even skipped lesson de.

i didnt had ani lesson 2dae practically...coz i skipped edd juz to go for my basic theory test...was...i was studyin for it the whole mornin...in the lec, canteen n so on...reali dun wan to fail...so reali studied for it lor...n time passes by quickly n i made my wae to the drivin lesson wif winnie...but the two sotongs dun even noe how to make their wae n almost ended up lost sia!! haiz...pathetic!! n with e help of the bus uncle n 1 passerby, finally, we got to the driving center!! n tt was finally...

went for the e trial n did like 4 sets of paper...erm..pass every single one of it lehz...even got a 100% for 1 of e paper!! hehe...reali nice...den dear was anxious for mi too i guess..den ask bout my result for the e trial also..luckily i did well..n went for a short 30 mins break b4 proceedin to our btt room!! wah...damn blur of mi lor...actuali left my skool drivin card on the cafe table n couldnt find it when i was bout to enter the room for my test. den reali, i got panicked...luckily one of the instructors helped mi...if not i didnt noe tt i got take e test wif juz my ic...

my test was scary...luckily most of the questions r those i did during the e trial..wats most irritating is the indian guy beside mi...keep on peepin at my n winnie's com screen(winnie n i was separated by this indian guy for god's sake!!). wth!! keep on peepin at our com screen to see if he got the same question as us so as to double check...ediot!! reali ediotic!! somemore he's so much more older den us lor...haiz...but well, the most scary part comes when i juz click on end test...wah...my heart almost jumped out lor...reali scared i'll fail lehz...but hehe...guess wat?? the word PASS showed up on the scrren!! hehe... wah...my heart went thump...back in place!! *phew* reali...my smile so wide sia!! hehe... reali happie coz both of us passed!! i even told mummy this surprise!! she was shocked n happie at the same time i guess...

den went back skool to look for my baby...all e wae till like 8pm b4 i went for tuition...baby, u've worked hard 2dae. n was onli back at round 10.30pm.so tired...lookin forward to my advanced which will b on the 17 feb...hope i can pass through it all too!! 1 shot!! hehe..thx guys..for those hu helped in a wae or another! =)

i passed my basic theory test~~!! baby...thx for all ur effort in teachin mi...muacks...

Sunday, January 15, 2006

-5:17 PM

was reali sad yesterdae...thought bout lotsa stuffs...n ended up switching off my fone for the whole nitez....tt was not something which i will do. for i'll neber switch off my fone unless it's reali gone all flat or LOST(*cHoi*) hehe...but well, was pretty upset over some stuffs. cryin to sleep n stuffs. but though it doesnt reali matter now. baby u made mi smile. =)

woke up pretty early 2dae...mayb coz i slept at 10pm yesterdae, i woke up at 7am in the morning..well, the packing of freebies for open house didnt started tt early, so i went back to sleep till 9.30am. n though i went late, i was still "early". everything started onli after lunch...n yes, i did haf fun...working wif my antors n so on...gino was reali high...hehe..everyone was sayin tt they wanna go club. but i guess onli gino made it came true wif his cousins i guess..to M.O.S zac, mi n dawn gaf up e idea. zac wanna do IA project(reali~~?!?) n dawn becoz of parents n mi becoz of my sweetie.

lata part of the dae was tiring. i was packing up the bags...filling it up wif stuffs. reali difficult. n my fingers hurt...it reali hurts. reach home at round 6.15pm wif dawn coz i'm accompanyin her to dinner at KFC!! hehe..reali nice. so long neber eat le...should o again...miss e chickens!! lolz!! seriously, i would onli tink of KFC is u were to ask mi which fast food has the nicest chicken. how bout u?!?! hehe...boi...i'm sure hungry now.

after tt, went to sweetie's house n now back at home...tired. wanna go out wif him.but he gotta work. i guess the idea's out...n i'm off to bed..

i'm attached...officially...

Saturday, January 14, 2006

-7:20 AM

in ihub room blogging now...wif so mani ppl by my side rite now...steven lee, @de, sarah n so mani more...juz finish eatin the refreshment which i tink onli the fishballs are nice...others still hai hao lor~~~ but well, it was all finished in the end. so...dun reali noe whether it's nice or not coz everyone was sayin the curry puffs n the cakes werent nice, but still, everyone "managed" to finish it... hehe..get wat i tryin to put across?? hehe =)

was almost late for skool 2dae...juz nice when i stepped into the room, Mr Ng took out the attendence book to take takin down our attendence. so...i was heng...nth to sae...juz reali stressed yesterdae bout the project. so went to play "wheel of fortune" with gino and dawn....hey guys, reali sorrie..i wasnt angry at all...not at all. was juz feeling kinda stress den reali cant take comments well i guess. reali tired n stuffs....thought bout lotsa things n it juz came all together...but i'm reali glad tt u guys even offered to ask mi to join u guys in ur game of "wheel of fortune". reali thx n sorrie....

went to bed onli at 3.30AM in the morning yesterdae n was on fone all the wae till 5AM...things happened i guess....sometimes i reali haf to praise the human's mind. for she is alwaes tinkin tt he's wif her...all this while..onli to noe tt he wasnt..for though he sae tt he's wif her...n haf alwaes wanted to be...the words n the actions juz simply cant help but contradict themselves. she wasnt ready for it in the past.but he was alwaes there at her door, waitin for her door to open up. but rite now, when she opened her door(thinkin tt he will b there), he was no where to b found. for she thought tt he said tt he's ready for her...but juz tt actions shows it all...tinkin back...words n actions juz contradict each other...leavin her mind confused, upset , disappointed n crying over his answers.

actuali, has it ever occurred to him tt all she wans is someone to stay by her n for her to stay by through all times. someone she could love n be loved by....but someone tt will b there juz for a temporary of like 5 - 6 months? no...she doesnt need tt. if tts wat he wans, i guess she prepared to let him noe "Let's juz let things go back to the wae things were in the past. sorrie baby..."

for she's terribly disappointed n upset.

Friday, January 13, 2006

-7:09 PM

juz wanna blog bout yesterdae n the stress tt i'm goin through now...

i went to johor yesterdae to shop. n i didnt go to skool...oh yes. skipped skool. bad rite? i noe...but i still did it. but well, it was fun...shoppin around...saw quite alot of nice clothes...in which i finally bought 1 top from diesel...hehe...i'm wearin it on new year's... didnt tell u guys the price yet rite? well, i bought it at 59.90 RM. got a shocked? i hope not...i didnt buy much i guess...a top for mi n 1 for baby. gino: 2 big pillows ( which got luffed by the customs police...almost got checked!!) n 1 big storage box. zac: a pair of jeans n some pants...well, excited as it was my 1st time there w/o my parents. went back at round 4 like tt...hehe...erm..jam lahz...haiz...but well, was back at home by 6pm. after dinner n i went to baby's house le...hehe...

gonna share some pics wif u guys...

oPPs...hU's tt..

sHy aRhz...

i'm sufferin from great stress now...rushin my TE individual assignment and IA almost done...haiz...dying le lahz...so tired now...somemore still went for tuition juz now...reali suck my blood!!

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

-6:00 PM

phew...woke up at 11.30am this morning when i'm suppose to meet the gers for lunch at 11.30am!! wah...this time reali die liaoz!! seriously, this is wat's on my mind when i got to noe i'm late...so i rush lor...bathe...dress, packed n stuffs...n onli by 12.10pm, i ran out of the house. but the stupid bus also onli came at round 12.30pm sia!! sianz...hurried to jack's place onli to find out tt i'm the 3rd earliest to reach there!! wat the hell, i still thought chiew ching was early sia(cuz i sms her n told her i'll b late)!!

well, i was early n hehe...suan them lor!! hehe...lunch was nice...n filling...wif e gers mahz...ended the lunch by 2.30pm n the rest of us(mr teo, jas, zhen n chiew ching n mi) went to starbucks for a short chat n some drinks...oooh....2dae was sure a rainy dae...these few daes been rainin...now...i hate rainy daes....reali...den waited for baby to come meet mi lor...loitered for round 2 hrs...n he came...n off we went to bugis!! to start shoppin!!

shoppin is alwaes fun...but guess wat, i was e one hu said tt i wanted to shop for my new year clothes. he was e 1 hu said he didnt wanted to buy new year clothes. in the end, he ended up buying even more stuffs den mi!! haiz...wat should i sae?? nike bag, tees, jacket, socks etc for him...for mi...onli a top!! oh my god!! well, baby bought a jacket while i bought a top at addidas...reali like it alot...saw a jacket at addidas. was still tinkin tt whether i should buy tt jacket too...coz its reali nice...den e both of us could wear it 2gether on new year dae [bAby's suggestion. =) ]. erm...mayb i should go back n get it...since its so nice also...reali like it... =)

went for dinner at pastamania...so full...saw alot of weird weird ppl 2dae sia...1st 1 at the pearlini sliver. this middle aged guy was lookin at the mirror n observing himself like no other business sia...lolz... admiring n checking his nose...turning afew rounds...lolz!! den at pastamania...saw this guy wearin like typical ah beng...but juz tt his dressing is reali weird lahz...dunno how to describe also...

b4 goin home, we went to the perfume section...tested afew n tried to make my choice there but...failed...reali dunno which to buy...
Choices:
1. DavidOff Echo Woman
2. Gucci Envy Me
3. Anna Sui Secret Wish
oh god...help mi...definately goin to get 1... =)

went home in a cab...n tts how i spent my hari hara haji... =) n i enjoyed my dae wif u baby..

Saturday, January 07, 2006

-2:09 AM

now in ihub room blogging bout yesterdae...been so busy and stuffs like tt....for the whole of yesterdae...it was mainly skool skool and skool... early in the mornin, i was late for skool liaoz...coz i'm reali too lazy...even managed to make honey drink for tt sore throat baby...

well, skool was like wif lunch wif ade at design n off to wireless lab le...i guess tts the onli lab/lesson tt i reali attend every thursdae i guess...hehe...got back my wireless paper le...well, did quite well n was reali happie wif myself...glad tt there's at least 1 module i did well...hehehe =) n after tt, i went home to take a short nap...

woke up but still unwilling to pack my bag coz time was still early..but lata on, i rush like mad lor...coz bag not packed and wendy still wanted mi to send her some songs...haiz...but well, i managed to reach there on time lahz....busy busy busy lor...all the wae till it was my turn to run for the marathon...

everyone's required to jog/run at least 3 rounds...at 1st was still tinkin mayb i'll juz go n run 3 rounds and go....coz baby's waitin for mi too...but well, zac was wif mi...thx zac, for encouraging mi to run wif u...in the end, i tink i did quite a remarkable result of 15 rounds!! hehe...well, made baby annoyed also becoz he waited for mi from 10pm to 12am!! sorrie baby...reali sorrie...

so after my bath, i went over to look for him...wat a sweet darling he was. my darling cooked a meal for mi!! hehe...reali nice...reali enjoyed it...baby....thx you...i reali appreciate all those stuffs tt u do for mi...especially when u asked mi to help u get ur pants from the cupboard!!

"Dear, i reali love you alot. Yong"

hehe... spent the nite wif him n back in skool now...haf a reali early breakfast wif him. sent mi back to ihub room n off he go le...baby...i'm reali looking forward to meetin u lata... =)

btw, adeline happie birthdae!! and its ur dae!! stay happie n enjoy ur dae!! happie 19th burfdae!!

Friday, January 06, 2006

-6:45 AM

baby...so sorrie for all that i've said and the wae i behave...mayb its becoz now that we r in it 2gether...i kinda expect more from u...mayb its wrong...but i reali dunno wats wrong wif mi...seriously, i felt as if i was in a debate wif u yesterdae more den agreeing to something tt we both look forward to. do u feel it tt wae?? could it b tt we r still not ready for each other?? seriously, i dun understand the sudden change in mi (or u too). i shouldnt haf expected too much from the both of us... mayb could it be tt u've neber reali let mi noe of how u feel??

now tt we've made this decision, i hope that if in ani case u tink that u haf made the wrong decision,let mi noe...for it would neber b happie for u n mi if this problem arises...blame mi for sayin things this wae as i am reali feeling insecure and seriously not confident in myself...but trust tt i am neber losing confidence in u...juz tt its mi...baby, i would neber wan to change u or make u turn out to the wae u r not...i'm not tryin to sae tt i wan u to report to mi every now n then n be some warden tryin to control her prisoners...but pls..i dun like to be taken for granted...

all i hope is tt both of us will neber mention or even tink bout leaving each other in ani cases...let us hold our hands together through all times k? for u mean too much to mi..too much pain for me to bear if i were to let u go...i wanna b the onli 1 to listen to ur heartbeat, the onli 1 u will lock ur hands wif, the onli 1 ur mouth will meets, the onli 1 hu will b wif u through all times...for i wan to b the onli 1 in ur life....trust mi on this....

baby...u r all tt matters....

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

-1:48 PM

06 is here...and i've spent it in a nice, sweet though weird way...n i went tent pitching on new year's eve...tt was how i waited for new year....innovative ya?!?!?!

2dae was the 1st dae of skool btw...nothing much...the veri 1st dae n i skipped my BFA lecture liaoz...haiz...no hope for mi le lahz...muz jia you le!!

lunch at ITAS 2dae...n guessed wat?? i onli spend $1.80 on the malay mixed rice!! cheap hor? mayb coz i neber ordered ani meat ba...but it was reali cheap...asked zac to eat the same thing wif us but he didnt wanted n thus went to buy dunno wat tom yam... haha...lolz...regretful tom yam lahz...all i can sae...dirah's baked potato is nice too...hehe...spent 2 hrs there sia..even got to see joo!! hehe...shocked mi babe...but reali nice to see u around...been missing u gers badly...

IFCTech lab 2dae was sleepy!! i'm a sleepyhead!! keep on wantin to shut my eyes up n nap!! mayb i've been takin too much nap nowadaes tt i feel so sleepy in the afternoon!! but well, tt was tt...btw, i passed my IFCTech quiz...26.5 upon 50!! lolz...heng rite?? hey, i didnt study much for it lehz...reali heng!!

haf da go run on thurs n fri le...for tt william tan's record....hehe...goot also lahz...can slim down!! should go some exercise le...after the meetin wif steven lee n the rest, ade n i went to short circuit to chat bout sweet nothings...

i noe u r sad, but ger, take things slow...look n see wat u reali wan k? tts all i can sae...all the best ya...

so near yet so far at times...there r times i wonder wat's on ur mind...i wonder bout the stuffs that u mind...mayb all these wonderings shouldnt b happening...for u're neber mine n i'm neber urs in ur eyes...there r times when i feel like retreating n tts when i need to noe tt u will hold mi tight...but will u b there?? i forgotten how mani a times i've asked myself this...the answer i get alwaes varies... yes or no...i dunno...mayb i need u to let mi noe...

if i'm urs and u'r mine or tt and tt was all we r....

Sunday, January 01, 2006

-11:36 AM

haf been a fulfilling week...n i hope for more to come...

it's all bout u baby...all bout u... =)

05 is ending in a few hours time!! 06 is comin...hope it will be a great yr for mi!!

thanks for all tt u've done for mi...u're all tt matters!! =)