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Sunday, February 26, 2006

-8:31 AM

finally i'm back to updating...by the order of adeline...hu's askin for an update...hehe...so sorrie...its mi...hu's been reali busy for exams...i reali tried my best in all my exams. juz hope tt my hard work will pay off...hehe..

all through out the study week, i've been goin back to study for my exams..even till e exam week...reali hope tt i'll successfully pass my exams paper. haiz...btw, i've passed from java paper... heard it from Lengsan...hope wat he has said is true...java reali suck my blood if u guys noe bout it...juz dun wan to retake java agian under vincent wong...he's reali strict. if i gotta retake, i might as well juz quit skool now...reali lehz..

wat reali worries mi now is Inter Aplliances (IA). tt paper is kinda killer for mi..its not tt i didnt studied for the paper, juz tt wat i studied didnt came out furing the paper...haiz..real sad...always like tt..but aniwae...juz hope tt my IFCTech n IA can make it lor...

right now is adh...wat does it means? it means at dear's house...lolz...someone's gonna be irritated lor!! hehe...but well, i simply love u!! goot luck everyone for ur papers...

Sunday, February 19, 2006

-2:22 AM

some reali cute pics found inside dawn's email for mi...showing it to u guys...

tts tweety!!

ttS sLyveSteR!!

reali cute pics hur?!?! too bad no winnie the pooh...hehe...still love winnie the best lahz...btw, i'm at hubby' house rite now...ok...not gonna sae mch..i'm goin to study my java le...bub bye....

Saturday, February 18, 2006

-1:45 PM

i wonder oftenly...if one person reali loves another person so much, wat r the weird things that he or she would do for the loved one? erm...mayb picking up her call as n when he wishes?? or even treatin her like a ?? i reali dun understand...i haf alwaes thought tt picking up ur loved ones' call is a wonderful n sweet thing. imagine this, ur loved ones to share ur feelings rite now. but somehow, i guess it kinda doesnt apply in where it should belong...the calls will onli be picked up if he feels like tt and if he's feeling abit betta, he returns ur call. so is tt cool? well, wait for the whole dae for tt call...

ok...one example, ur gf called u thrice but u werent free to pick it up. juz den, a number tt u've neber seen called on ur fone twice. but u were busy...so in the end, both werent picked up. so when u r finally free to return those calls tt u've missed...which 1 would u return 1st? ur gf's call or the stranger's call? for mi, it would certainly b my guy's call...but somehow...it didnt turned out tt way too. not tt i'm tryin to grumble n complain bout stuffs...juz tt, i dun feel the kind of love tt has been proclaimed.

i guess there would b mani a times hafin dinner would b a problem too...it was neber my wanting to b petty n so on...but if u haf reali tink back, how main a times was it this case? things tt u promised, but they neber came true? n how come it has neber occurred to u tt juz to spend time wif u, i'm willingly to gif up my fren's dinner gathering juz to be wif u? n the time i will take juz to wait for u to call mi back when u can choose whether or not to pick them up at first? mayb all these were juz insignificant SMALL things tt u juz cant b bothered. n i reali cant believe tt u would choose not to even let mi noe u will b out for meal wif ur fren when i'm juz rite there waitin for ur call like an ediot...

mayb i'm reali an ediot...

n oh well, i gonna stop blogging. becoz i've been waitin for tt call to ask mi out for dinner n even asked mum not to cook my share n onli to end up eating AIR...

i'm hungry n disappointed...the onli happy thing i've met 2dae, passin my final theory n onli to find out tt i'm actuali thought out to b a bimbo all the while. the rest, they dun matter at all. for all i've spent time helpin out n doing, is all becoz i didnt managed my time well...

baby...tell mi wat it means...

Thursday, February 16, 2006

-5:14 PM

LychEe...!!!

he aint smiling to mi...it's his game...

he reali cant b bothered wif mi...

my baby n mi in his Lab...

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

-9:47 PM

i'm here with my baby...

thanks baby for ur oh-so-sweet gift....n i appreciate it lotsa... muacks...

i love e noodles tt u've cook!!

n i love u so...veri much!!

Thursday, February 09, 2006

-4:18 PM

at last..3 projects down...1 more last one on fri...

i'm dead beat...!!

i miss u baby...

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

-3:55 PM

n i still cant believe tt i've got 2 of my major projects for this sem down le!! hehe...EDD n IFCTech!! woohoo!! EDD cleared yesterdae n IFCTech 2dae...but well, when Mr. Teo was accessing us 2dae, i was kinda scared...coz the whole project was practically done by yuki...n for mi...i reali dunno how to do the whole thing though i managed to understand wats goin on...but trust mi...if u ever ask mi to do tt same whole stupid thing again...i will still b an ass to tell u "i dun noe how to do~~"

things been bad for yuk wai's group for IFCTech...his members kinda like "ehm" slack and he's been reali worried bout it. i guess they didnt managed to present their project 2dae n will b doin it again on fridae...omg!! god bless them!! but well, i'm kinda lookin forward to SIP n see how will tt group survive, goot or bad...but seriously, i kinda can already predict it's outcome... well...

okok...i should reali stop tokin bout others. i went to skool wif my baby 2dae...spent the nite at his place n finally went to skool wif him this morning...dear is reali sweet 2dae...reali...trust mi n bet on it...i reali felt as if i was the onli 1 hu will captured all his attention, simply the onli one. was practically wif him the whole dae..but it doesnt matter, for its him i'm wif.. =)

i'm reali tired 2dae...stayed in skool till 7 plus to do my final techo report. tired but proud of it.haiz...like bout 2 weeks back, there's this malay ger hu keeps on smsing mi tinkin tt i'm her bf...but the strangest thing is i tried tellin her tt i'm not her bf but she kept on insisting tt i am!! hey...i'm not a LES!! i haf a boi fren...a oh-so-fantastic boi fren k!! but aniwae, this malay ger by the name of mita (which i got to noe from zac) gaf mi this no n we called to find out if tt person noe hu this mita is n let her no i'm not the one she's lookin for. but this stupid bangalah kept on askin how i got his no. well, for the veri 1st time he asked, zac told him politely tt mita was the 1 hu gaf us his no. but he kept on tellin us he didnt wanted to noe hu mita is as he dunno hu is mita n kept on askin us how we got his no. omg!! made mi felt reali like an ass.

but well, everything's resolved by ignoring him n tt was tt. went over to meet xian for awhile b4 bloggin rite now. real tired, feel like goin to sleep le...

*yawns*

baby...recently its been mi not trustin u...i noe its reali bad of mi n i reali felt bad...i noe u've been busy wif ur stuffs n oh god, i knew bout them too but i juz allowed my imagination took hold of mi. i appreciate wat all ur efforts 2dae n i reali wan to tell u..u matter alot to mi...for i love u as much as the sparrow loves the white rose, or even more. n i reali do....

now tt i'm reali tired, i wanna go sleep so as to gif myself more energy for tomolo. techno presentation, formal wear n so on...long dae ahead eve... jia you jia you jia you!!

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

-5:46 PM

i'm scared...mayb i shouldnt tink too much...but i noe i cant...

my imagination has gotten mi....running wild wif every kind of thoughts...and the sad thing bout it is i cant control it..

i wish it's wouldnt b true...i hope it wouldnt b wat i heard and wat i see...turning them into wat i thought they could be...for i would juz tremble even at the slightest thought of it...

pls hold mi tight n dun ever let go...for once u've let go of mi..i afraid i'll neber find my wae back to u...

pls believe...

Sunday, February 05, 2006

-4:11 PM

woke up at 10.40am n went straight for tuition at jeremiah's house le...all e wae till 1pm b4 i stay at their house for lunch...steamboat again..but wow...the food was nice n i reali enjoyed myself...

stayed all wae till like 2 b4 makin my wae back...

started to prepare myself to go to aunt's place at round 5 plus n stayed there till 11pm b4 making my wae back. goin there's sianz coz like no one to tok too lahz...aniwae...all r kids n adults.. wat do i mean lehz?? either kids or adults... reali sianz...n mind u...1st time of mi watchin e tv alone w/o tokin to others during visiting..reali sianz...

but well, one of my auntie actuali helped mi to "perm" my eye lashes... =) she juz learnt it n wanted someone to try it out..so there i am!! hehe.. her guinea pig!! but well, i haf nice eye lashes now!! lolz!! =)

i waited the whole day...straight from afternoon till nite, till now...i'm reali tired...e promises doesnt come true at all. i guess they were neber taken seriously b4... 1stly, round 3 plus den 5-6 plus den nitez time till now...i'm reali tired. tired of waitin n sick of it...those foreva not gonna be picked up fone calls n neber gonna reply smses... i reali tried my best to wait. i guess there's nothing much i can do when you've neber reali spared a thought for mi ( i tink~~). i dunno if i'm e 1 w/o patience or mayb i should reali continue waitin n dun complain...but i reali cant do it ani more...n it's reali drainin mi awae since u still dun gif it a single shit when i told u bout this...

n it's reali drainin mi awae so quickly, tt rite now...i'm all drained up..all drained up....

Saturday, February 04, 2006

-6:18 PM

2dae is a great dae...coz kinda reali lookin forward to dinner...hopin tt it would come early...hehe...coz darling's comin to my house for steamboat!! hehe..n well...came true!!

early in the mornin i woke up to gif baby a mornin call...drag for bout an hour b4 its my turn to wake up for skool...lessons as usual...till 12.30pm. java tutoril ended early(for once~~!!). n went straight for lunch...

waited for ade all the wae till 1.05pm b4 finally eatin wif her...oh my...actuali hungry but after awhile like not hungry le lor..but i still finish my food lahz..after which went for e short meetin at ihub room onli to find water drippin out of e aircon!! amazing!!drip like siao n i cleaned!! took part in cleanin!! but well, tt wasnt the main pt!!

we went late for 2dae's briefin..mi, ade, zac n gino...haiz...den saw tt carina...

she: y were u all so late? u guys might as well dun come at all...!!
mi: *glare at her n walked awae*

oh my god!! wat a fu*ker!! she should b glad tt we still came tt we came though we were already late. n during the briefin, she was reali guai lan!! so thorughout, i was listenin to my radio..not payin a single shit to her...some even kena barked by her sia!! i reali like it when tt guy walked out of the hall n left her snooked!! haha..simply love tt part!!

mayb if she shouldnt b so guai lan...still dare to sae tt she is tryin to treat us like adults...pls lahz...e wae u treat us when we r not even in our MP-SIP shows us tt u r not even treatin us like an young adult...simply like kids... if u reali dunno wats the meanin of treatin someone as an adult, u should go back n reflect n not juz keep on barkin at ppl.

mayb she should go back n start K1 again...juz in case she doesnt noe wat is K1...it means Kindergarten 1...

but well, enuff of wateva bad stuffs, baby came for the steamboat dae..though he's not feelin well...baby, i reali appreciate tt...the whole thing...my 2 little darlings kept on askin qns n makin mi fuss over them 2dae...baby...i love u...

now i'm so tired le...i'm goin to sleep le...nitez everyone..thx to those ppl hu accompanied mi when i'm in need of help yesterdae...w/o u guys, i wouldnt b hu i am 2dae..thx..u noe hu u r...n i love u baby..

Friday, February 03, 2006

-4:22 PM

all i ever need is alittle more trust from u baby...nothing more den tt...

i reali dunno wat came over us n turn things this wae...but i hope u understand how i feel...for u reali mean alot to mi baby...

feeling all mixed up n confused becoz of u.....

i'm here wit u...

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

-1:42 PM

woohoo!! cny is here again le...well, this two daes been not bad...juz tt there isnt much excitement bout cny nowadaes...hardly haf ani festive joy...haiz...so sad..but still i tink this year has been a quite goot dae...

New Year Eve

woke up in baby's arms...but i left early to go get some of the necessary stuffs for new year at round 10am. i hate last min shoppin..seriously, i hate to do tt...my shoes especially. didnt had time to do ani shoppin for my shoes...haiz...sad sia!! but well, everything was nice especially reunion dinner. hehe...this year was reali special, we had steamboat for dinner!! hehe...nice lahz...all gers dinner!! hehe...

i enjoyed it...got my ang baos from my father's side le...well, so tt means tt we r not goin over to visit them on 1st dae of cny le(we usually go over on the 1st dae!). so tt nite was kinda sianz...waited for baby's call all the wae, till mid nite...but he was nottie!! went to drive his car out secretly!! humrph!! baby...u make mi worry!! pls dun do it again~~!!

CNY 1st dae
left my house at only round 2 plus!! omg!! we gers lahz...drag n drag...reali cant stand it sia!!went over to my grandma's house!! my beloved grandma (btw, i only haf 1 grandma tt fom my mum's side. the remaining 3 already hehe liaoz..)!! saw alot of ppl!! wan yu jie, xue lin n xue hui jie...my beloved sky kor n yong juan kor!! so long neber see them le...so when we got 2gether, the whole place like turned into market lor...hehe..mayb coz i was around ba!! too noisy le...we reali took our time to tok bout everything, catchin up wif each other. yong juan kor brought his ger fren,Cecilia, along...well, we do had quite alot to tok bout.. =)

i practically spent the whole dae there lahz..tts all..played afew card games wif them n won a tiny weeny bit of $$. hehe...5 bucks actuali!! hehe...though its reali pathetic but i'm happie though...no matter wat.

we went to see third uncle. he suffered a stroke, now cant even tok or eat on his own...the only thing he can do is cry...reali...see him like tt i also sad...he was still so healthy n all of a sudden, he got a stroke. haiz...

after eating prata wif my cousins at opposite skool, i went home le...tts my cny...

CNY 2nd dae
went round wif my auntie n her two gers to go visit my uncle(my dad's cousin~~!!) haiz..dun reali noe them too sia...but well, i still went...even went to my cousin's relatives house n tok to them, get ang baos n so on b4 leavin at 7pm...

i slept on the wae home inside the car. i'm dead beat!!

i went to baby's house after i reach home...rested for onli like 10 mins n i went over le...to go bai nian. hehe...his fren were at his house when i reached his house...haiz...actuali wanted to go out together, but in the end, we separated from them n went over to his grandma's place. well, dun reali understand the card game tt they played but still enjoyed myself there though.

reali pai seh when his aunts ask him to introduce mi to them. well, i hope i did well. =) hehe...baby lost abit in the card game..but well, we left his grandma's house at 2 plus to go back to his house!! the place where i spent the nite...

baby...muacks!!

CNY 3rd dae - todae!!
woke up in baby's arms too!! hehe, went home at 11.30 am lor...coz mum was kinda angry when i spent the nite outside yesterdae. but well, she wasnt reali angry when i reached home 2dae...

i reali helped to clean the house 2dae..but dun understand y i keep on cleanin the house..mayb i got the cleanliness bug le!! hehe...went to the temple 2dae to pray also...real fun lahz...i can piggyback my mum n my sista!! hehe...n my sista can piggyback mi too... well, i forced her to!! hehe =)

back at home, everyone went out except for mi...but i guess i was reali tired...fell asleep soon after i bathe finished on the sofa...haiz...from 4 plus all the wae to 7 plus...n now i juz finished my dinner n started blogging le...tomolo's skool agian n i reali dun feel like it lehz...sad...

baby...i dun understand...if u love mi, dun sae her name in front of mi k? it makes mi tink otherwise. sometimes i juz wish u would b alittle more sensitive towards mi...reali...