Surrounded by all the lovely people tt she needs in her Life. Swinging twen-ties, she has NOT got her license soon enuff to drive around nuts. LOVE her, ADORE her for she needs NO others to interfere in tt fabulous life of hers. Take xtra care for she's NO softie as she plays serious netball. simply at e mercy of sHoPpiNg, sHe wiLL NOTREFUSED to any forms of DONATIONS tts gonna come her wae. =)
N Lastly,
her boi fren, hu is her heart, her life n her soul. =)
He the ONE she WHOLLYBELONGS to.
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Him, the one hu will make her heart flutter
be LOVED, juz like how she savouring every min outta it.
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exams been reali stress n i cant help bout tink bout wat's gonna happen after my exams end. it's juz like i've got soo soo soo mani activities planned for like IMMEDIATELY after my exams n yet i noe nuts for my papers. shit! if onli god can help mi now...
ping n mi haf soomani activities planned le!! steamboat lahz, rebel nitez lahz, GSS trip lahz...wah...super alot lor!! n i reali cant wait for 22nd to come!! tts like the start of everything lor!! haiz, its juz like recently den i found out i gt lotsa of stuffs to buy n i'm running out of cash!! i muz start workin le!! cash is soo low for mi liaoz!! argh!!
things hafnt been goin well for mi i guess. i missed u alot..sometimes i wonder if u'd reali understand mi thru these 3 yrs. thru all times when u were on my heart n it hurts mi, i was the onli 1 hu noes bout it. prolly mayb my family members n close frens hu seen them accidentally. yet u're the 1 hu can doubt my love for u. i reali wonder wat's wrong wif us.. y do we haf this communication prob wif us?? i love u soo much n yet besides u sayin tt u still love mi alot,all the things tt i've seen from u n heard from u r hinting mi tt u prolly dun love mi tt much le.
i hafnt changed n i hope u hafn't too. i still love u as much as b4 n i'm veri much still waitin for u to b ready as well.. but y does it means tt besides sayin tt u still love mi veri much like b4, there's nth else tt i can see from u to convince myself tt u still love mi??
Friday, May 01, 2009
-1:48 AM
i felt so betrayed...he tells mi tt all tts happening is exactly the wae thing as wat it is for mi... tts bullshit!! if both things r the same, i would haf accepted him long ago le...total bull shit...
u still tell mi tt u r waitin for mi to come back to u n tt u still love mi alot..but y r thing tt u've done r all tellin mi the exact opposite wae?? i cant seem to believe u animore. u're the 1 in the wrong n yet u tell mi we're the same!! yong, is this ur wae of lovin mi? i dun see ani proof at all.
tt veri dae when i was soo sick, i had to make my own wae to e doc myself. tinkin tt this is already the worst case, i haf to see u n her together. she sittin at the veri seat tt i used to sit. ya, mayb the word is "used to" try xplaining to mi in another situation den. did i eva go on a holidae wif u?? wat has she done in the last 3 yrs to deserve all these?? n i feel like a fuckin fool!!
i reali dun see how much i fucking mean to u...how bloody stupid i am...
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
-3:12 AM
juz a short reply sayin
"Oh i'm fine. Life been good. Haha. Take care too. I'm not free till next wed. nitezzz."
n it juz ends everything. all tt i've to sae to u, all tt i've to ask, all tt i guessed.
i noe she's goot to u n i dun blame anione else except for mi myself. it's mi hu suggested tt u should move on wif her. its mi hu said tt we needed more time. its mi hu knew tt u needed my love more den anithing else n yet i still blatantly rejected u. i blame no one. she's lucky she's picked u up. theres nothing more i haf to sae. wheneva i tink bout all these, all the speech n words came out w/o a noise, n yet all i haf r tears tt start to fill my eyes.
kang told mi tt i should try hard to get u back. mayb this time round, it's should b my turn. but yet when i tink off all the words tt u've said to mi after we broke off, i cant do it. all the waits, all the wooing mi back r juz words. mayb i shouldnt haf believe mi in the 1st place aniwae. till now, u still dun understand mi. my mouth is sharp but my heart is not...
eva since tt nite when i thought of all the stuffs tt i did wif u at town, u started appearin more n more in my mind. 2dae's been the worst dae i guess. u occupied my mind the whole dae n many a times when tears flood my eyes, i'm juz glad tt i'm in skool n i didnt wan to cry in front of others n therefore, the tears didnt flow. everywhere i go, i tink of us...all the happie n sad times...it was onli till now did i realize tt i actuali remember veri vividly bout all the stuffs tt happened to us. it warms my heart n den stab mi at the back, hard n cold. e feelin sux.
sweetheart, i noe she's goot to u n i haf no right to ask u to come back to mi. i dun wan it to seem like i'm contridictin myself by askin u to move on n onli to hold u back at the veri last min. all i request is... she'll reali love u wif all her heart n u to remember tt i had love u truely n deeply b4, now n in the future.
....Baby, I Stay In Love with You.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
-11:27 PM
i juz dunno y, i reali had a sudden urge to write an entry into my blog 2dae...it's like it's been soo long since i last post an entry liaoz...n this blog is like practically stagnant for dunno how long le n yet when i looked n checked back, actuali i haf soo mani unposted entries in my blog. i mus sae tt this blog has reali walked most of my teenage yrs wif mi...times when i'm sad, happie, angry, frustrated or even annoyed n so on so forth... it's been veri goot yrs n i still remembered how i used to post everything onto this blog to share my feelings wif my frens n even u... tokin bout now, i noe u used to check my blog w/o fail every week or ever few daes, though i've been reali lazy for the last 1 yr, n didnt reali wanted to blog, but still u made an effort to come into this web-combed blog to check on mi.
juz 2dae, juz when i was out wif my frens, alot of memories came into my mind...i went to watch a movie wif my frens after klass. somehow or rather it made mi tink of u. e wae u used to b annoyed wif mi wheneva i jump wif fright in the cinema n scared u, makin u jump wif mi. i can neber forget. although i hate the wae u shout n mi n tell mi tt u dun like mi to do this n i would get so irritated over it, i still love watchin movie wif u. it reali kinda made mi sad. i reali dunno wat's wrong wif mi..all of a sudden, it juz seems like u occupied my mind n my heart juz like u used to do. juz when i thought it was ok, i went to haf jap food wif my frens, n yet all of a sudden u came into my mind again. somehow or rather, e thought of us goin to our fav place for sushi barged into my mind. all the memories of us hafin fun over food n choosing our fav food...it reali saddens mi...
on the wae home 2dae as well, i heard this song on the radio by 3 doors down, "here without you". i can still recall veri vividly when we 1st started goin out, this was the song tt u told mi u love. it was den when i was hearin this song, tears flood my eyes..alot of things tt happened to us, happened between us, our stuffs, ur stuffs n mine, they juz flash thru my mind...at tt point of time, i reali had wanted to call u n tell u tt i wasnt prepared to let u go. mayb i alwaes thought tt i wanted to be on my own..but mani a times, when i'm at my lowest n darkest times, it's u tt came into my mind. ultimately, its u tt i still wan to go home to, cry to n listen to u coax mi sayin "dear, bu yong jing de. i'll alwaes b by ur side, protecting u no matter wat happens."
now tt everything's over n has come to this stage, i dunno how to sae things out in my heart as well. n i noe tt probably u'll neber see this entry of mine for u may already haf other posts to see to le. my blog link may jolly well haf long disappeared from ur favouries link as well...however sad i'm feelin now wif all these thoughts in my mind, i noe they're all over le.. she's doin well n fine, replacing mi by ur side. N i hope that she doin a goot or even better betta job tt wat i've done previously in takin care of u. to mi, u're alwaes like a big baby tt needs so much love n care. from ur personal needs to tidyin up ur stuffs to organizing ur time n stuff for u to everything.
i reali love u yong..up till now, u're still e one tt i misses n loves the most...n i dun tink i can eva do all these or love this much to another guy again. lookin thru all the pics tt i haf now of us...it reali saddens mi...i reali love u. n i alwaes will...muacks!!
Monday, January 05, 2009
-12:11 AM
i went home ALONE 2dae...
utterly disappointed in u....
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
-12:47 AM
things r not as goot as wat i expect them to e now. n yet at this veri point of my life, i'm experiencing a low peak...i seriously hope tt things will get betta n turn for the goot.
i love u...i'm puttin in effort. can u see them?
Thursday, August 21, 2008
-12:38 AM
so sianz, my sales sux. tink i'm not gonna hit my sales target for the month liaoz...but still, i hope tt some rich lady will come along n prolly gif mi a $1400 sales!! n tts equivalent to the RE-CREATION DAY N NIGHT CREAM!!! hahaha...
I'M A DREAMER!!!
well, nvm, i'll juz keep tryin till i hit my target, for i didnt hit it last month. sucky!! missed tt 100 bucks!! juz by 1000+!!! damn sianz...work till i so sianz liaoz, reali feel like rottin at home n juz watch the tv. be it the tv watchin mi or mi watchin it, i juz wanna stay at home. sick n tired of workin liaoz.for i'm alwaes on the nite shift. neber once has the roster been fair to mi by gifin mi a fair share of am n pm shifts!!!
haiz, i juz dun wan to complain but sometimes i juz cant help mi. aniwae, jesselle's birthdae comin n she's askin my help!! i'm gonna help her do a nice 1 though!! will b goin over to her place early in the morning this sat to help settle the food. tt blur ger juz need some help lahz, if not her guests no food to eat le!! lolz!! heehee!!
i'm juz soo soo worried bout my exams results suddenly. haiz, its juz like as the dates for skool reopen steps in closer, my heart gets heavier n heavier though i've neber reali said bout it. the onli words tt prolly come out of my mouth regardin this issue will be "aiya, it will b fine/ i'm resigned to fate/ nothing much i can help." but i cant help but feel helpless n i juz dun wan to fail. i should haf started studying earlier n i totally regretted it. TOTALLY!!
life sux. there r times when i wan to forgif, but juz cant help but tink of the times when i walked back alone in the dark. its mi, mayb time can help mi 2 forget them, but at least not now. e helplessness, anger, disappointment n so on tt i felt at tt veri point of time. its juz too much. tell mi hu will n can forgif within such a short period of time?
